Changes

Life is full of changes and they are inevitable.  Some changes are welcomed and others are more difficult to adjust to.  Our life has seemed to be full of changes recently, some easier to welcome that others.

A welcomed change was Gage’s mobility.  He is now up and moving and chasing after his big sisters.  He beat the girls and walked before 13 months where as both girls didn’t walk until after 14 months.  He took no time to start digging into things such as cupboards and drawers and closets J  I love watching him walk.  He looks like a drunken goose with his chest all puffed out and his staggered waddle.  He has become quite the dancer too as he and his sisters all rock out to movies like Rio and Veggie Tales.  He has become quite vocal in the last couple of months as well.  He likes to scream at the top of his lungs and I can’t blame him as it’s hard to get a word in with his two gabby sisters.  He is up to 6 teeth now.  He got his bottom two then his “vampire” teeth and now his two front teeth are on their way in.  There have been a few sleepless nights where Gage and I have fallen asleep on the couch or rocking chair but like everything else it’s a phase that will pass and new changes will come.

Another welcomed change is the beginning stages of potty training Paisley.  I decided I had better start when she started trying to wear Bianca’s big girl panties.  She was wearing them as belts and hats J  I look back at Paisley before Gage was born and she was such a quiet and shy baby and part of that could have been from her staph infection that we didn’t know she had, but she has become such a different little girl in the last year.  Now she is my spunky and spirited little girl.  I will admit I’m a little fearful about what her teenage years will bring, but I hope and pray she will always be as confident and spirited as she is now.

Biggest change and hardest one for me to accept is the beginning of school.  I’m still in disbelief that Bianca heads to school for the first time on Friday.  Part of me is sad.  I have to share her with the rest of the world now and won’t get to spend all day with her anymore.  I hate that I will miss some of the funny things she says and does and that my super star status with her will now be shared with her teacher.  I worry that kids will be mean and she will learn what the world is really like and have her heart broken.  But I also know how much fun she will have meeting new friends and getting to learn and experience new things.  It will also give me a little bit more time to spend with Gage and Paisley while she is at school.  I’m thankful that BJ gets back from Mexico Thursday night and took Friday off so I can have a shoulder to cry on when I drop her off.  It’s only a half day for preschool so I will only miss her for three hours a day but at the same time she will be in school from now on and our days will be just a little different. 

Changes are part of life and always will be so it’s best to just accept them and make the best of everything.  In the end God knows what he is doing and things will turn out for the best.